Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Day 6.. Spiritual Scrub
I woke up this morning in a shitty mood. I am having money troubles. I am a fiscal failure with a promising job. It is a sad pathetic treatise on my inability to live within my means. But it is true.
Because of this, I had to ask my brother for help.
I couldn't ask my father again...ONE MORE TIME
Because he has helped me so often, and without payback.
Maybe it this journey I am on of late. A journey to be the best me. But I went to my brother knowing he would help and knowing he would be strict about the following:
1. I WILL pay him back
2. There will be no money directly deposited in my acct.
3. He will force me to admit everything about my spending habits and help me come up with a plan
Needless to say, I felt like a baby sister in the truest form last night.
I went to bed with an inspired idea on what to write about. I would write about how it is a blessing to have someone to fall on when you are in need. How I was humiliated but calm about it all for the first time. I felt a change ahead. I feel a change in me.
I am not going to lie to get the money. I told him my predicament. I tried not to cry.
It didn't work.
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