Friday, August 10, 2007

Day three... Origins female.

I have three older brothers. Yes three. Half-brothers to be totally accurate, though we grew up together.


I am the love child of my two parents. My father prefers to say diaphragm baby. (I know a lot of these.)


Note to self:DIAPHRAGMS SUCK!!!


I am the only girl


I did well in school


I was a tattle tale


I fought with my mother


My father is GOD


Daddy and Me against Mom – that’s how it was.


Still is in a lot of ways.


I am still apologizing to her for things I said:


FUCK YOU”


YOU’RE JEALOUS OF ME BECAUSE I WILL HAVE A CAREER AND YOU ARE JUST A MOM”


I CAN HAVE BABIES STILL”


First of all, there is no just being a mom.


Second, like I said, I am still apologizing.


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3 comments:

Ev Nucci said...

Wow...you just made me cry! I can hope and pray that some day my sons will get what you got.

It is the hardest job in the world to be a mother. And the most thankless. I've been both career woman and mother and that's been in some ways even worse.

But the fact that you got it...I hope and pray some day my sons get it. This was truly beautiful! Thank you for giving me hope!!!

SuzyQ said...

Your blog is powerful in it's honesty.
Healing is all about confrounting the truth, however painful, accepting it, and moving on. You sound like a very brave person.
I wish only blessings for you in this new path you have chosen to walk.
Suzy

awannabe said...

Wow, that was hurtful
Nope, no just being a mom.
Sometimes the people in our lives and
God forgive us for the things we do long before we do.

Read the lyrics to Audio Adrenaline's song... "Ocean Floor"

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/audioadrenaline/oceanfloor.html